Alone again, naturally

It's Monday and everything, except for the sunny weather outside, seems dreary and bleak. And I miss my boyfriend terribly. Funny how last week on this very same day I was feeling so excited at the prospect of being "unofficially engaged" as my friends would say it, and now that my boyfriend has left for Miri, Sarawak I'm just left with this hollowness inside, and it's only been two days. He's been posted there for three years to come, so this is just the beginning really. I have yet to come to terms with being in a long-distance relationship. I know that I have to be strong, it's just that there are days that it could be the hardest thing to do.

Being alone, when you're in fact in a relationship, is not easy. It's totally different to being single altogether. Cause you know that there's this person who loves you and who cares for you and if it were up to you you'd spent every single waking moment with that person but alas, things don't always go the way you'd want them too. And you can't really have it all in life, without making some sacrifice..

I guess the only thing to do now, as sitiwankembang told me the other day, is to find a project, dedicate my attention and energy towards it, so that by the end of the day I'll just be too tired to think of anything else..And also now would be good to finish those books that i bought but haven't read, watch those DVDs that I bought but haven't got around to watching, catch up more often with friends..After all, life goes on,eh? On the plus side, being apart for a long time from a loved one has its advantage when you do get to see each other again..like the last time when my boyfriend just returned from a one-month's stint in Labuan, that first time we went for dinner after I picked him up at the airport felt like we were on our first few dates..that excitement, awkwardness, playing with the food on your plates, trying to avoid each other's gaze,hehe..trust me, after being together for four years, that can be so refreshing.